Hello, I’m AvatarAcid. I’m the InsaneMembrane. The above image was created by myself and tweeted out on March 8th 2013. I had been following Richard Garriott’s UltimateRPG countdown and the information around it for some time with great anticipation. You see I am quite a large fan of the Ultima Series, and always will be, and all through my childhood I could rely on the Ultima Series to provide me with new challenges and adventures. Ultima provided a chance to bond with family and friends, enjoy a great story, and challenge my younger self to think about some of the moral issues the game presented me with through Richard’s wily ways. Then in March 2013 Ultima was coming back. One UltimateRPG to rule them all!
Back then the concept of Shroud of the Avatar was still pretty much a Single Player game with very limited Multi Player options and an allowance for dynamic content, like having the same housing and crafted items across all instances of the game. The game instances were also to be hosted on individual PCs spread across as many geographical locations as there were groups of 12-50 players, which would have greatly benefited me where I am living today due to infrastructure limitations on the internet. Having a unique and rare experience that I could enjoy myself and happily share with others also, a decent way to tackle lag due to living in the internet pits of the world, and it was a brand new Ultima successor – Couldn’t be happier! So happy that I jumped in with a Citizen pledge early on which was around ten times more than I had ever spent on any game in my life of buying games for myself. Later I upgraded to Knight and now fifteen times more than I’d ever paid, and while I know that is a big thing to me it is just a drop in the sea when compared to those of you who have spent tens of thousands.
It was good for a while, but I started to notice a few pretty boisterous personalities starting to push for things early on. Ultima Online things, MultiPlayer, and MMO things. On top of that, some of the users were putting forward further processes which outlined goals to segregate community so some could rise above others based on the price point in which they themselves elected to pay for the game. At the same time several really unsavoury personalities started to arise also both in IRC and on the Forum which carried with them more than a hint of racism as well as harassment. Some even openly so! At first these things were properly reported by myself and others. Yet nothing was done and in fact some of the people whom pushed back were on the opposite side from the SotA moderators, since yes, more than one of the Moderators were persons of interest when it came to some of the issues above like racism and harassment.
The big cratering came for me came in an incident where Owain had told moderator UltimaCodex(WtF Dragon) that he can’t have an opinion. I would bet good money nobody out there, not even some of the people involved in creating the Ultima Series, know as much about Ultima as WtF Dragon and the Ultima Codex site contributors do. I had always followed Ultima Aiera then the UC and appreciated all the work they put in to keep the Ultima Series legacy alive and well. WtF Dragon has the right to his opinion and it matters not what his status in the community is and that goes for everyone else in the community as well, yet that sentiment was not seemingly accepted or encouraged. I chimed in and told Owain he could “GTFO” if he didn’t like that someone else had an opinion.
WtF being a moderator correctly informed me that speaking like that is probably going a bit too far which told me all I needed to know, and that is that the most powerful and in your face voices had already gained a beachhead in the community. This problem wasn’t going to be solved without help, but what could I do about it? Should I speak out as AvatarAcid and have my ass handed to me with my account hanging over my head if they decided to ban me? Mind you nothing quite like that had just yet happened to my knowledge but I could still envision it taking place due to how everything was starting to shape up there, the writing was on the wall. Why should I risk my account which was now linked to a thousand dollar donation in order to deal with things that already shouldn’t have been allowed to establish prominence there?
It soon became more. The game development was going astray, forum personalities including moderators were insulting and driving out the typically quiet and more non-aggressive people like me(usually!) to the point where even Developers fear posting, telling them they are useless and stupid, and then there is the question I still ask myself now; What is Shroud of the Avatar actually trying to be and how do I get my feedback out in an environment as confrontational and unguided as that which exists on the Shroud of the Avatar forum? Well I did exactly the same thing Richard Garriott did with the Avatar and created a schism in my personality, my own little personal Guardian! Meet the InsaneMembrane.
I decided to fight fire with fire and parody myself in the situation with positions which would otherwise be mutually exclusive with AvatarAcid’s. People wanted to argue from a point of privilege? PKs want to turn SotA away from an epic single player tale and into a giant MMO UO2 where they camp gathering sites? Moderators not calling nor taking care of obvious rotten apples? That is a job for the InsaneMembrane! Carving up pledges into Founder and Royal Founders, water lot restrictions, Player Owned Towns, unlimited instanced POTs, death of the Dev+ forum and all promises that come with, failing at combat and dumping it, Devs lowering themselves to InsaneMembrane’s level and abusing people on steam…after they ask for positive reviews to be instituted. Madness! There is much more, the one that hit home the most for me was ending the croudsource efforts before I could even get into it. I wanted to do more than just pay for this game, I wanted to HELP it succeed. I was told I could, so what happened to that sentiment and why could I now not? Well InsaneMembrane jumped in and tried to tackle these hard issues and I would like to think he, or I, or we did so not just with the self in mind, but with the rest of the community in mind also. Only InsaneMembrane could do this because InsaneMembrane was unknown and had no leg in the game, nothing to lose to try and get to the source of all these problems and perhaps get some answers. What I didn’t ever expect to happen though was that as time went on and more and more things came out of the woodwork, something else came into the spotlight… Portalarium itself.
I learned through Richard Garriott and Ultima both, you need to challenge yourself, challenge others, to push the envelope! And so I did. That said, I always try to keep to comments related to stuff taking place on the forum and other social media sites directly linked to SotA. I haven’t ever gone after anyone’s personal life or sought out information other than that unless was related to Ultima/SotA community in some way.
At first the warnings and bans to the InsaneMembrane account were cute. But it became clear at some point, probably right around the InsaneMembrane account getting perma-banned for the second time(lul) for pointing out leaks in the Dev+ forum, that I could no longer just blame the community personalities and moderators themselves. Why weren’t the mods moderating the forum properly? Who is looking after the moderators themselves? What policy does that person have and where did they even get it from? My comedy and opinion then turned towards Portalarium and the Devs. Most of whom on a personal level I think are great by the way so I was conflicted about even having to go down this path! But a spade is a spade and business is business, if InsaneMembrane was going to continue on the logical path of finding all Insanity and calling it out, he would need to address the core of these issues. If you aren’t upsetting some people, you aren’t really being brave. If everyone likes you, then you have never said anything true, anytime you speak the truth someone’s going to hate you.
This continued for some time and for the longest time I felt pretty alone in doing this. Statistics sure told me that people were reading here, but I didn’t know who they were a lot of the time or what they thought. Eventually comments started to come in though and I was certainly not alone. The Shroud Unlimited Forum was created by suggestion of a commenter to facilitate even more conversation with the Orphans of Shroud. More and more information was then exchanged and noticed by the many more eyes that were now on the SotA forum personalities and Developer team. Some of them, really, really, didn’t like it this.
Some of them really didn’t like it to the point of committing serious crimes to get at me, going above and beyond the call of duty. To the best of my knowledge on or around August 22nd 2015 someone paid to gather information about me and my family and began sending it to people that InsaneMembrane has “insulted.” I know of at least three people who have seen this information now and one of them indicated it was being “put out there to certain folks” and with the amount of people InsaneMembrane has parodied, you can bet there is more! This included everything from my name, my spouse’s name, our kids names, addresses, work places, phone numbers, passport numbers. I was away for the weekend and at first I pulled back to think, then after about a month of reflection I came to the conclusion that I would sell my Shroud of the Avatar account for whatever I could get for it.
Just to point one very simple thing out here now; some people say that I have been the most toxic asshole to have ever graced SotA’s sphere of influence, yet I have never and would never do anything like that to someone. But one of you in the Shroud of the Avatar community would and did, so ponder that one for a moment everyone and be warned when dealing with what is left of the Shroud of the Avatar “community” under Portalarium’s “guidance,” especially if you are posting on social media with your personal accounts. They came for me, they will come for you too.
Why did I wait until someone started to conduct personal harassment against my family to sell? Why did I put as much money in to community related projects by community members as I did into SotA itself? My love for Ultima and for those who love Ultima, and what Shroud of the Avatar could have become got the best of me. So much so that I felt the need to create the InsaneMembrane to defend the Honour of Ultima in only a way that InsaneMembrane could. But it had become very costly and too costly for many reasons; Too costly personally, through threats to my family. Too costly to play, everything you can think of is being added to the add-on store and I think a grand should have been enough to buy me some nice frigging clothes right? Too costly not to play, the game has been two years+ now and still being derailed by projects never intended to be included in the MMO it has now become, there really is no game(not that I know what kind of game it is or will be any more anyway). This… Is not the UltimateRPG that I dreamt of and it is too rich for my blood on every front. I could have spent thousands on this game also, but apparently I spotted things that others didn’t early on and it saved me a lot of money. I fold.
Not all the way out though, for like many, many, others I was silly enough to try and connect Steam to SotA and now I’m stuck with the $45 Adventurer Pledge. So it looks like I will still be able to jump in and test things out from time to time if I ever break a leg and get holed up for a month or something. Dumping the RF account is a big load off and I thank the community member who purchased it for almost what I paid for it. I still do hope Shroud of the Avatar will succeed but I really can’t understand or see how it possibly could live up to the UltimateRPG I dreamed Richard Garriott was going to produce. At this point I am not even sure if Richard Garriott is even going to like the end product, it is so far from what he described initially!
InsaneMembrane isn’t going anywhere for the moment. My blog will still be up, I will keep posting updates. Shroud Unlimited Forum will still be up and I will be there to provide a place for EVERYONE to come and talk candidly about Shroud of the Avatar and anything else on your mind while you’re there.
Evolving MGT470 Guild Logo
Sometimes these articles could write themselves! Damn Lori decided to hold a public contest to give away some minor rewards, all you had to do was enter it by creating a photoshop image with the stock she provided. Not only did she reward a member of MGT470, she rewarded that greedy money loving carpetbagging assbutter Isaiah of all people!
LULZ. My insane brains are actually divided on this one. Damn Lori was herself a member of MGT470, but she has been pretty quiet about that after MGT470’s repeated fuckups exposed on the SotA forum and the MGT470 forum by myself some months ago. Perhaps Damn Lori saw the better part of wisdom and put a condom between her and the rest of those fuckin carriers. I can’t decide if she gave it to Isaiah because he might try to start a MGT470 class action lawsuit against her if he didn’t win or if she just did it out of pity for him.
I mean shit, a public contest is held and the reward goes to a member of the same guild as the organiser and he happens to be the biggest money driven greedy twat in the community! This shit is gold guys, thanks for making my day!
Well, I believe it is time for me to address an elephant in the room. Are you lubed up Starr? Don’t worry bro, I jest! Sort of.
In the past two months a startling number of revelations have slowly and quietly been released about Shroud of the Avatar. Kind of like a test fart, just let it out slowly, quietly, then take a big wiff and see if it will melt the paint off the walls and if anyone else smells it. Well, this smells like fucking shit guys. I’m talking to you Devs.
Up until this point, I’ve pretty much given them a pass on a lot of things and focused on the community members and dick moderators which really turn the community sour for a lot of people. I think the reason was that I believed that at least in the end they wanted to produce a decent product with the limited resources they have. When that is the case they can easily be forgiven for minor annoyances and complaints like graphics quality, keyboard commands, chat systems, overland map bullshit, you know the shit real fucking gamers don’t actually care about because they are too busy playing a decent game.
So, some of the more interesting things have recently been nerfed. Nerfed from original Kickstarter goals at that, and I’m unhappy with them for this. What things, you ask of Insane, and Membrane answers:
Unable to meet promise of Unity asset packs.
Redefined the Developer level KS goal of Creating an NPC, due to resourcing issues on the project.
Introduction of the Row Houses.
These significantly de-value the investment many have made into the game, and even if that wasn’t the case the removal of the Unity packs and customized NPC is a pretty obvious slap in the face on top of that for those of us who wished to contribute in the project in some way.
So basically, they have made a promise to you that if you give them money you can help build their game for them. Seems like a win-win, they get cash and you help with the tedious crowd shit right? I guess not, they can’t even seem to manage a simple thing like data collection and entry for the NPC stuff. Christ guys, give me a fucking notepad program, a web server and some JSON and I can solve that problem for you inside of 30 mins.
On top of this, the first time that they directly changed something from the Kickstarter campaign, they were caught changing the original text around the goal. That, was a fucking dick head move guys, all us out there and you think that would go unnoticed? Now, they are just splitting hairs and re-defining what is already there. I will give you an example.
The Developer Pledge description from Kickstarter:
Want to be a part of the Development process? This is the level for you! Gain access to the private Developer Chat/Forums and help participate in guiding the game (estimated Developer Chat/Forums access in April 2013). You also get to help create a character in the game as well as name them. When everything’s said and done, we’ll put together a PDF document of various concepts and design documents.
Notice, it was said we could help create AND name a character. Here is the definition of create:
To cause to come into being, as something unique that would not naturally evolve or that is not made by ordinary processes.
What has Portalarium said on the topic? We won’t get to create a NPC in Shroud of the Avatar, we will only get prompted when a new area becomes “available” and submit names for NPCs en masse AND first come first serve basis! LUL!! We might as well bend right over and let them go to town on us guys. Can’t design the look of the NPC, what it wears, what it says, how to interact with it. Nope, just mail them some names and hope you get lucky.
What did they have to say about all this? Sorry? Not a fucking chance you nub, lulz. They claimed that the text in the Developer description didn’t include “NPC dialogue” and that it isn’t “feasible” as a backer reward. Now, I can’t and locate where it expands on this NPC stuff, but I know for a fact they were going to send us forums to fill out and hand back to them, they did originally plan to do this for us. Just like they did plan on working on the Unity asset packs.
I wonder how many more hairs will be split in the Kickstarter pledge descriptions by the end of this project?
What can you expect? It seems that Shroud of the Avatar only release information to sources which are very very cosy with them!
Here are my comments, in which I was banned for. I even said it was a great article and didn’t blame the author! 🙂
Fair enough I did get one thing wrong according to Andy Cortez a SotA Dev who has corrected me on Art sourced from Unity. I made a correction post on that which was also deleted here is what Andy had to say:
@aInsaneMembrane we actually do not buy assets and give them to people
I made a few more comments on the article which were also removed I didn’t back any of them up I didn’t figure it would be required. I should have learned my lessons on that by now!
To be continued, Polygon…
Wow, so these foos over at Polygon have read the post I put against the SotA housing article, deemed it warn-worthy and have provided me with a warning. For more background see my article in response to the Polygon/SotA ‘interview’ here: https://insanemembrain.wordpress.com/2013/09/17/polygon-article-sota-housing/
They obviously didn’t do their homework and have no idea what they are talking about, but what can you expect from people these days in any case? I don’t have issues with the dev team, lawl. I’ve got issues with nubs who post articles about bullshit which comes from sources whom are either indifferent or just provide an opinion which doesn’t represent the rest of the SotA community. Which wasn’t even consulted or given a chance to participate by the way.
I think what pisses me off the most, I wasn’t even trolling them. Didn’t spew out a bunch of curse words either. Under their own guidelines the only thing they could have removed my post for was trolling, and that would have been a long stretch, but for some moderators as you know just having a disagreement with them equals trolling.
Now that I think about it, maybe I should get them the real information and get that post corrected. As they have stated this:
Polygon makes every effort for stories to be completely accurate upon publication. Inaccurate stories will be corrected but not removed.
Well in any case, I have re-posted and kept it a bit more generic… Lets see how they like this one:
Great article. I support SotA currently at the Citizen level KickStart pledge level and am looking forward to it.
I am wondering though about the sources of your article? I have a Dev+ Forum account, but there was no mention or discussion on this prior to release. I have also not seen Tina Swafford (aka Fireangel) or Lori Treleaven (aka Dame Lori) pop up in any of the developer profiles on the SotA form. They are also not listed as staff.
Who exactly are they, and how do they have accurate information from inside the Shroud of the Avatar team?
So something has my panties in a bunch, and holy shit it isn’t Air Marshal Owain this time!
It is this article on Polygon. It features “information” on Shroud of the Avatar Housing from two sources, what they have in common is that they are both women and both dev+ backers(even though one of them was given free dev+).
- developer+ community member: Fireangel.
- developer+ community member: DameLori(or some shit like that)
I have recently touched a little bit on Fireangle in this article about Chick Loot. Not going to waste much time on Damn Lori because all she does is re-blog shit, doesn’t have any thoughts of her own.
Why does this suck? Well, some guy is putting information out there about SotA using only two community members who don’t really care about the housing and haven’t been given any additional information about housing from the Portalarium. Why even write the article?
So, why did two women who were dev+ backers get a chance to do this? Well I suspect FireLotus, Community Manager at SotA, selected her girlfriends Fireangel and Damn Lori to do it for us. This wasn’t a competition which was won by those users, it wasn’t earned, it was simply given. I do know plenty of people on the forum(both dev and non-dev) who have better ideas, opinions, and experience with housing than the two people selected. Those points could have been presented to the interviewer to enrich that article in any number of ways.
I know I am not the only one whom is also a Dev+ backer who is a little bit jaded by this. We have all been contributing and have been active with some very visible, but they were not given this opportunity, because we were skipped over for a brainless re-blogger and a charity case.
You don’t have to take my word for it. I take screen shots of everything(click to zoom) I do, I knew one day I’d eventually piss enough people off to get banned. Here are some of the things Fireangel and Lori had to say:
“…I’m no more ‘privy’ to facts than anyone else.” – Fireangel
“Starr did not screen anything and didn’t even have any idea what my opinion on housing is…” – Damn Lori