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Shroud of the Avatar – Too Rich For My Blood

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Hello, I’m SotA-Shield-light-exsm2 AvatarAcid. SotA-Shield-light-exsm2   I’m the InsaneMembrane. The above image was created by myself and tweeted out on March 8th 2013. I had been following Richard Garriott’s UltimateRPG countdown and the information around it for some time with great anticipation. You see I am quite a large fan of the Ultima Series, and always will be, and all through my childhood I could rely on the Ultima Series to provide me with new challenges and adventures. Ultima provided a chance to bond with family and friends, enjoy a great story, and challenge my younger self to think about some of the moral issues the game presented me with through Richard’s wily ways. Then in March 2013 Ultima was coming back. One UltimateRPG to rule them all!

Back then the concept of Shroud of the Avatar was still pretty much a Single Player game with very limited Multi Player options and an allowance for dynamic content, like having the same housing and crafted items across all instances of the game. The game instances were also to be hosted on individual PCs spread across as many geographical locations as there were groups of 12-50 players, which would have greatly benefited me where I am living today due to infrastructure limitations on the internet. Having a unique and rare experience that I could enjoy myself and happily share with others also, a decent way to tackle lag due to living in the internet pits of the world, and it was a brand new Ultima successor – Couldn’t be happier! So happy that I jumped in with a Citizen pledge early on which was around ten times more than I had ever spent on any game in my life of buying games for myself. Later I upgraded to Knight and now fifteen times more than I’d ever paid, and while I know that is a big thing to me it is just a drop in the sea when compared to those of you who have spent tens of thousands.

It was good for a while, but I started to notice a few pretty boisterous personalities starting to push for things early on. Ultima Online things, MultiPlayer, and MMO things. On top of that, some of the users were putting forward further processes which outlined goals to segregate community so some could rise above others based on the price point in which they themselves elected to pay for the game. At the same time several really unsavoury personalities started to arise also both in IRC and on the Forum which carried with them more than a hint of racism as well as harassment. Some even openly so! At first these things were properly reported by myself and others. Yet nothing was done and in fact some of the people whom pushed back were on the opposite side from the SotA moderators, since yes, more than one of the Moderators were persons of interest when it came to some of the issues above like racism and harassment.

The big cratering came for me came in an incident where Owain had told moderator UltimaCodex(WtF Dragon) that he can’t have an opinion. I would bet good money nobody out there, not even some of the people involved in creating the Ultima Series, know as much about Ultima as WtF Dragon and the Ultima Codex site contributors do. I had always followed Ultima Aiera then the UC and appreciated all the work they put in to keep the Ultima Series legacy alive and well. WtF Dragon has the right to his opinion and it matters not what his status in the community is and that goes for everyone else in the community as well, yet that sentiment was not seemingly accepted or encouraged. I chimed in and told Owain he could “GTFO” if he didn’t like that someone else had an opinion.

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WtF being a moderator correctly informed me that speaking like that is probably going a bit too far which told me all I needed to know, and that is that the most powerful and in your face voices had already gained a beachhead in the community. This problem wasn’t going to be solved without help, but what could I do about it? Should I speak out as AvatarAcid and have my ass handed to me with my account hanging over my head if they decided to ban me? Mind you nothing quite like that had just yet happened to my knowledge but I could still envision it taking place due to how everything was starting to shape up there, the writing was on the wall. Why should I risk my account which was now linked to a thousand dollar donation in order to deal with things that already shouldn’t have been allowed to establish prominence there?

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It soon became more. The game development was going astray, forum personalities including moderators were insulting and driving out the typically quiet and more non-aggressive people like me(usually!) to the point where even Developers fear posting, telling them they are useless and stupid, and then there is the question I still ask myself now; What is Shroud of the Avatar actually trying to be and how do I get my feedback out in an environment as confrontational and unguided as that which exists on the Shroud of the Avatar forum? Well I did exactly the same thing Richard Garriott did with the Avatar and created a schism in my personality, my own little personal Guardian!  Meet the InsaneMembrane.

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I decided to fight fire with fire and parody myself in the situation with positions which would otherwise be mutually exclusive with AvatarAcid’s. People wanted to argue from a point of privilege? PKs want to turn SotA away from an epic single player tale and into a giant MMO UO2 where they camp gathering sites? Moderators not calling nor taking care of obvious rotten apples? That is a job for the InsaneMembrane! Carving up pledges into Founder and Royal Founders, water lot restrictions, Player Owned Towns, unlimited instanced POTs, death of the Dev+ forum and all promises that come with, failing at combat and dumping it, Devs lowering themselves to InsaneMembrane’s level and abusing people on steam…after they ask for positive reviews to be instituted. Madness! There is much more, the one that hit home the most for me was ending the croudsource efforts before I could even get into it. I wanted to do more than just pay for this game, I wanted to HELP it succeed. I was told I could, so what happened to that sentiment and why could I now not? Well InsaneMembrane jumped in and tried to tackle these hard issues and I would like to think he, or I, or we did so not just with the self in mind, but with the rest of the community in mind also. Only InsaneMembrane could do this because InsaneMembrane was unknown and had no leg in the game, nothing to lose to try and get to the source of all these problems and perhaps get some answers. What I didn’t ever expect to happen though was that as time went on and more and more things came out of the woodwork, something else came into the spotlight… Portalarium itself.

I learned through Richard Garriott and Ultima both, you need to challenge yourself, challenge others, to push the envelope! And so I did. That said, I always try to keep to comments related to stuff taking place on the forum and other social media sites directly linked to SotA. I haven’t ever gone after anyone’s personal life or sought out information other than that unless was related to Ultima/SotA community in some way.

At first the warnings and bans to the InsaneMembrane account were cute. But it became clear at some point, probably right around the InsaneMembrane account getting perma-banned for the second time(lul) for pointing out leaks in the Dev+ forum, that I could no longer just blame the community personalities and moderators themselves. Why weren’t the mods moderating the forum properly? Who is looking after the moderators themselves? What policy does that person have and where did they even get it from? My comedy and opinion then turned towards Portalarium and the Devs. Most of whom on a personal level I think are great by the way so I was conflicted about even having to go down this path! But a spade is a spade and business is business, if InsaneMembrane was going to continue on the logical path of finding all Insanity and calling it out, he would need to address the core of these issues. If you aren’t upsetting some people, you aren’t really being brave. If everyone likes you, then you have never said anything true, anytime you speak the truth someone’s going to hate you.

This continued for some time and for the longest time I felt pretty alone in doing this. Statistics sure told me that people were reading here, but I didn’t know who they were a lot of the time or what they thought. Eventually comments started to come in though and I was certainly not alone. The Shroud Unlimited Forum was created by suggestion of a commenter to facilitate even more conversation with the Orphans of Shroud. More and more information was then exchanged and noticed by the many more eyes that were now on the SotA forum personalities and Developer team. Some of them, really, really, didn’t like it this.

Some of them really didn’t like it to the point of committing serious crimes to get at me, going above and beyond the call of duty. To the best of my knowledge on or around August 22nd 2015 someone paid to gather information about me and my family and began sending it to people that InsaneMembrane has “insulted.” I know of at least three people who have seen this information now and one of them indicated it was being “put out there to certain folks” and with the amount of people InsaneMembrane has parodied, you can bet there is more! This included everything from my name, my spouse’s name, our kids names, addresses, work places, phone numbers, passport numbers. I was away for the weekend and at first I pulled back to think, then after about a month of reflection I came to the conclusion that I would sell my Shroud of the Avatar account for whatever I could get for it.

Just to point one very simple thing out here now; some people say that I have been the most toxic asshole to have ever graced SotA’s sphere of influence, yet I have never and would never do anything like that to someone. But one of you in the Shroud of the Avatar community would and did, so ponder that one for a moment everyone and be warned when dealing with what is left of the Shroud of the Avatar “community” under Portalarium’s “guidance,” especially if you are posting on social media with your personal accounts. They came for me, they will come for you too.

Why did I wait until someone started to conduct personal harassment against my family to sell? Why did I put as much money in to community related projects by community members as I did into SotA itself? My love for Ultima and for those who love Ultima, and what Shroud of the Avatar could have become got the best of me. So much so that I felt the need to create the InsaneMembrane to defend the Honour of Ultima in only a way that InsaneMembrane could. But it had become very costly and too costly for many reasons; Too costly personally, through threats to my family. Too costly to play, everything you can think of is being added to the add-on store and I think a grand should have been enough to buy me some nice frigging clothes right? Too costly not to play, the game has been two years+ now and still being derailed by projects never intended to be included in the MMO it has now become, there really is no game(not that I know what kind of game it is or will be any more anyway). This… Is not the UltimateRPG that I dreamt of and it is too rich for my blood on every front. I could have spent thousands on this game also, but apparently I spotted things that others didn’t early on and it saved me a lot of money. I fold.

Not all the way out though, for like many, many, others I was silly enough to try and connect Steam to SotA and now I’m stuck with the $45 Adventurer Pledge. So it looks like I will still be able to jump in and test things out from time to time if I ever break a leg and get holed up for a month or something. Dumping the RF account is a big load off and I thank the community member who purchased it for almost what I paid for it. I still do hope Shroud of the Avatar will succeed but I really can’t understand or see how it possibly could live up to the UltimateRPG I dreamed Richard Garriott was going to produce. At this point I am not even sure if Richard Garriott is even going to like the end product, it is so far from what he described initially!

InsaneMembrane isn’t going anywhere for the moment. My blog will still be up, I will keep posting updates. Shroud Unlimited Forum will still be up and I will be there to provide a place for EVERYONE to come and talk candidly about Shroud of the Avatar and anything else on your mind while you’re there.

 

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Et Tu? Community?

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nemo-jawsArtist’s rendition of Nemo Herringwary deep in thought before posting on the Shroud of the Avatar Forum.

Most of us have been there.  *foghorn*  Most of us have experienced it.  *foghorn* But this one will take, your, breath, away. Ok, dramma much? It isn’t really anything to be unexpected from the SotA forum or community to be honest. Moral of the story as always is that if you have a difference of opinion which does not fit into the current forum-norm you might as well just go outside and play hide and go fuck yourself.

Nemo posted the following topic in the SotA forum:

https://www.shroudoftheavatar.com/forum/index.php?threads/pledge-expiration-im-sorry-but-it-has-to-be-said.33755/

It is not so much the content of Nemo’s post which is the topic of the conversation here, but the subsequent community bashing he received is. Nemo wanted to express his thoughts on something that came out in Update #133, express he did, shat on he was. Here are just a few gems from the thread, you can go read the rest for yourself.

“Then don’t. I’ll not bother commenting on the rest of your post.”

– Bowen Bloodgood, Slasher of Axes

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“Nemo, if you want to leave, do so. Without looking for excuses.”

– Katrina Beckers, Portalarium Schil

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“Furthermore, Portalarium’s business model is hard to justify as either unless you give more sophisticated reasons as to why.”

– Vyrin, Word User

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“…no need to bring us all down too.”

-Barnabas Root, Who?

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“Instead of complaining all the time about the game, we all should make abig thx to the devs and tell them what we realy like.”

Edward Newgate, Clearly New

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“…can we just present your ideas and then discuss those without all this other unfair and highly toxic stuff clogging it up? “

– Vyrin, Word User

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

Alight that is enough of that shit. I haven’t checked my cache of deleted posts yet either so those aren’t to be included at this point in time. You get the picture though. Two things to take away from this.

1) Vyrin is smarter than that. He is using his thesaurus to bullshit around what Nemo was saying and in the same stride troll him into being more specific about the problems about funding and such. Vyrin knows if Nemo does this, Nemo will be banned immediately because you can’t talk about Portalariums business model in any specific way or with any scrutiny. They aren’t shy about telling people they won’t be questioned and people will be banned for discussing it. Hopefully Nemo doesn’t take the… bait.

2) Starr has won a short term and major victory preventing non-backers from posting in the forum. I can tell you there are a lot more people out there who agree with what Nemo was getting at, but they just simply do not have the balls to post about it or to support him in it. Funnily enough, one of the people who seems to have the balls to back him up in that thread is actually a chic. What’s that say about the majority of the male SotA fans?

A dark page has turned in the Shroud of the Avatar forum. Without any voices who oppose the forum-norm(100 percent Starr’s goal) the place is just going to be a forum where people have spent money and go to stroke each other’s egos telling one another that the money they blew into this game was a smart investment.

It is almost there. What are we going to do to prevent this? How do we keep Portalarium on the straight and narrow if nobody is ever allowed to question their motives? Clearly Portalarium is needlessly adding complexity to these issues, it isn’t easy to understand especially if you aren’t in there every day, and it isn’t transparent to the crowd.

We have to exist. You have to exist. If you can’t talk it over on the Shroud of the Avatar forums, then come over to the Shroud Unlimited forum and talk with us there. Nemo did after he was shit on, and this is what he had to say:

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

“It’s weird to find out that the lunatic outlaw forums full of people who want to chop you up and eat you in game, are more sympathetic than those with whom you might have spent decades sharing a love with, just because you now wonder if that love is still justified.”

smarten up before sota crashes and burns fuckers

-nemolives, Shroud Unlimited Forum

Don’t give up.

InsaneMembrane Needs Makeover – Taking Suggestions

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InsaneMembrane needs a makeover. Someone got bored and decided to bitch about the image I use; I did a google search for Lich a while back while looking for an image to represent InsaneMembrane. The following came up in the big page of image results on google images:

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I used gimp to change it slightly to the one which you have seen recently, that I have now replaced, as yes I did not ask to use the image which I found in google images, with a modified Ultima 7 Character Portrait I used originally.

aram-dolOrig Aram-Dol portrait from U7P2.

I was thinking because I like Ultima so much and there is even a chance Denis Loubet may have even done the character portrait above, I should have Denis do an original InsaneMembrane for me. That might then be a good STFU for people looking to hassle me about what avatar I choose to use, and get me something I’ve always wanted; Custom Loubet.

What do you all think? Loubet? Better options? What should I look like?

Discuss HERE.

Instructions – Shroud of the Avatar ( SotA ) – Release 16 Instructions for r16

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INSTRUCTIONS UNCLEAR – GOT DICK STUCK IN SOTA R16

One more time! One more time! Sixteen! Sixteen! Sixteen!
Shroud of the Avatar or sometimes abbreviated SotA has some instructions which were released and are available for Shroud of the Avatar Release 16, or sometimes written as sixteen and possibly R16. These instructions are probably the best SotA instructions available for any Shroud of the Avatar release involving instructions.
There are more than 16 instructions in this release of the Shroud of the Avatar instructions for R16. In fact, they may even add more instructions every release, so you can expect them to grow over time. New in the next SotA release instructions: HATS. Fucking so many fucking hats. Instructions on how to get hats. Instructions on how to wear hats. Instructions on who else needs hats. Way more than 16 hats are required in any carebear’s Shroud of the Avatar house.
Getting a house however in SotA is difficult. Instructions to get a house, or 16, aren’t available in Shroud of the Avatar Release 16 instructions, nor any other release instructions. You will likely have to just give all your money to Portalarium. That is the only instruction you need. It is over 16 dollars though. It is over 16 times 16 dollars. BUT DONT LOOSE FAITH! 16 dollars times 16, and then times another 16 will get you a decent house!! Not the best, but decent.
So I hope this helps you with R16 SotA release 16. I know a lot of people out there are googling for help on various Shroud of the Avatar releases, especially 16, and would hate for someone to totally not be able to find all their release 16 hats or something. Shroud of the Avatar hats are the whole game man, really, without a SotA hat in release 16, you are still somebody… A fucking loser.
This concludes the R16 Shroud SotA of the Release 16 Avatar Instructions.
Enjoy.

Instructions – Shroud of the Avatar ( SotA ) – Release 15 Instructions for r15

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INSTRUCTIONS UNCLEAR – GOT DICK STUCK IN SOTA R15

Shroud of the Avatar or sometimes abbreviated SotA has some instructions which were released and are available for Shroud of the Avatar Release 15, or sometimes written as fifteen and possibly R15. These instructions are probably the best SotA instructions available for any Shroud of the Avatar release involving instructions.
There are more than 15 instructions in this release of the Shroud of the Avatar instructions for R15. In fact, they may even add more instructions every release, so you can expect them to grow over time. New in the next SotA release instructions: HATS. Fucking so many fucking hats. Instructions on how to get hats. Instructions on how to wear hats. Instructions on who else needs hats. Way more than 15 hats are required in any carebear’s Shroud of the Avatar house.
Getting a house however in SotA is difficult. Instructions to get a house, or 15, aren’t available in Shroud of the Avatar Release 15 instructions, nor any other release instructions. You will likely have to just give all your money to Portalarium. That is the only instruction you need. It is over 15 dollars though. It is over 15 times 15 dollars. BUT DONT LOOSE FAITH! 15 dollars times 15, and then times another 15 will get you a decent house!! Not the best, but decent.
So I hope this helps you with R15 SotA release 15. I know a lot of people out there are googling for help on various Shroud of the Avatar releases, especially 15, and would hate for someone to totally not be able to find all their release 15 hats or something. Shroud of the Avatar hats are the whole game man, really, without a SotA hat in release 15, you are still somebody… A fucking loser.
This concludes the R15 Shroud SotA of the Release 15 Avatar Instructions.
Enjoy.

 

FOLLOW UP: Amberraine Serendipitously Awards Avatar’s Radio Manager

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Shroud of the Avatar community member Amberraine replied to my tweet on this article. Though later on it must have been taken down, which is a shame, because I like to see what people think rather than what someone else wants others to see.
Here are the tweets:

 

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I AM THE BATMAN

So, the first tweet.

@aInsaneMembrane Seriously? There were 4 people on the set of voters. I did not award it myself. I was the one that needed to post the results

I get that, and pretty much assumed that 😉 Though, nobody can argue here that there is not a conflict of interest. You just simply can not have a group of  insiders take control of something without being vetted by the community start handing out awards where the people you are “judging” are directly linked to yourselves.
Setting aside all of the money compensation bullshit which was going on after you guys came out of the woodwork, I believe this was the biggest issue everyone was worried about. Hell, just look around, why did Gabriel leave you guys? Why is there now this second community effort group, the Writers Round Table? The name alone which includes Round Table is a pretty big clue as to why it is fucking there lol. Equality, and I have to give them kudos for that!

GO FUCK

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The second tweet.

@aInsaneMembrane Lest we forget! I do not follow virtues, but thank you for the recognition and imput! it shall be taken into consideration

The Virtue discussion is one thing. If there are to be Virtues then there will be anti Virtues and yes you will follow them because Darkstarr will be all over them and you want to be all over him 😛 Anywayyyyy, I hope this sort of thing is taken into consideration. If Portalarium want to run a contest for the first seeded books in the game, then Portalarium can bloody very well fucking step up and judge the small amount entries that this contest produced!
If they wanted a group to simply be created to help others revise their work, then they should have done this exactly like the Round Table did. Sticking people they like without the proper credentials in places of influence is an amateur move, I suppose that is no surprise there, this entire community driven part of the game has had amateur written all over it since it fucking started.
Show us, who in the scribes is qualified enough and has a published work to stand in front of? I only know of two people involved in Shroud of the Avatar that do and they are no where near the Scribes/Scholars group.

 

 

Amberraine Serendipitously Awards Avatar’s Radio Manager

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RoyalSexy Photo From Paparazzi

 

In an obvious outcome that surprises absolutely  no one on the Forums these days, Avatar’s Radio conceptualizer and First Scribe Amberraine has awarded the first place prize in the Scholars of Novia’s very first contest to… RoyalSexy, the Avatar’s Radio Manager…
Again on this I don’t really have to say much do I, it writes itself all the way back to FireLotus. We are already aware of her clear bias for friends of a female gender(Polygon Housing Article & Polygon Warns InsaneMembrane – Deletes Post), and the track record and patterned history being created by most of the groups she has been interacting with.
Given the history with this group, its disastrous false start, and no effort what so ever to develop its own image to that of something remotely fair I have this to say to the Scribes: Why don’t you go outside and play hide and go fuck yourselves.